UPDATE: For several reasons the decision to move has been put on hold. We will move but our family needs time to save and heal before we move forward.
Recently, my husband and myself got the opportunity to move across the country. We would leave everyone we know and all of our family. This has been a long process of back and forth in our heads.
Yes, we do have job opportunities out there, the cost of living is much cheaper, and it is a new adventure for our family to live somewhere new.
BUT.. here kicks in my anxiety.
“I am going to be the worst mother if we move. She will resent me for raising her so far from family.”
“What if something happens at home? What if someone gets sick or dies?!”
“We will never see or hear from anyone again and we will be all alone.”
Thank God for my Husband. He helps me think through the positive and negative. He explains to me when my fears are heightened from my anxiety disorder. He assured me that we would go out there and our daughter will succeed. We know that no matter where we live, our daughter will have our unconditional love and support.
To explain anxiety…
When I have stress, like a big move, it makes me feel like I am unable to breathe. I start to feel my heart my heart race and almost beat out of my chest.
Having a support system is the most important part. My husband is the person to talk me off the edge. He keeps me strong and keeps me going. Marriage is trust. I trust him to calm me down and explain break down the choices. A lot of the time that means going over things over, and over, and over…
The past few days I have not felt so strong. But that is okay because nobody has to be strong all the time. That is just not realistic. That is when family and friends come in to support you. I also find understanding and peace in my faith. I know that no matter what we go through we will get through it as a family under God.
I guess what I am trying to say is…
We are moving! Momming is hard is going to be moving to a new place with new adventures. I will still be blogging, but I will start live streaming on Facebook (click here) as this process happens. I have never done this before, so if you have any tips or tricks please let me know!
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